Balance is not something I’m so good at. Drew always says I have a single on/off switch with nothing in between. He may be right. I do get a little obsessive about things, but I just enjoy life. And when I’m doing something, I want to really experience the doing of it. I guess I figure why bother if you’re not going to go all the way. But this is an energy-draining process. At some point burnout happens and I close up and go inside for a little while preferring quiet and calm. My pendulum swing may be wide, but my equilibrium is rarely off.
A friend and I were talking a while back about this. About wanting to be able do one thing really well. Or maybe just appreciating those people who are a master at some craft. And after thinking about it for a while, I decided I am a master… of experience. I may not have a specialty or a craft that I excel at, but I am pretty good at inviting new experiences and doing them to the fullest. Even when my interest fizzles out or it doesn’t turn itself into anything remarkable, I’ve never regretted a moment trying at life.
….I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I’ve visited this space. Springtime in the desert begins early and when summer threatens us with her aching heat it is hard not to soak up every single minute of cool sunshine before we are cast inside. Summer here is like winter other places and I feel as though we are just beginning to pack it in. With days full of life and adventure, babies learning to walk and teething, and little girls growing up way too fast, this mama is tired and lately chooses sleep over this comfy spot on the net. I am in such awe of how people can live such full lives and write their beautiful amazing blogs. Lately, I am exhausted, and my bed is softer than this keyboard. It is currently 4 a.m. and I should be there now….
But true to my form, I am here. Amazing things happen when I’m running full force and good things come out of those quiet moments. So while I appreciate balance, its really a sense of equilibrium I’m after. And I gotta tell ya, lately, I’m really looking forward to that slow swing back to the quiet side.